I’m still alive, kind of.

So I know I haven’t written in about a month. I swear I didn’t think it has been that long. I feel like the last post I wrote was like a week ago. Sorry about that, this month has been crazy. 

The last time I wrote, it was about Jay being sick. Well later that night he had a fever of 102 so I call my friend to take us to the hospital. He ended up with RSV. Luckily, it wasn’t as serious as it can be. I caught it as he was getting it (super mom powers activate!) But he was still so miserable and I wanted nothing more than to take it from him. He felt better after a week or so. Didn’t need a breathing treatment or anything so I consider ourselves very lucky. 

Another reason I haven’t wrote is because I felt like I didn’t have anything to say. I’ve been in such a foul mood, everytime I came on here to write I would just stare at a blank screen. Finally I would just say fuck it and do something else telling myself I’ll just write the next day. Well here I am weeks later finally having something to say I guess. I’ve also been a real hermit not wanting to go out to do anything. All I want to do is be home with my son and play video games. Which I have been doing and having fun doing it with great friends. Something that I’ve been doing also is trying to turn us into a Twitch group and stream our funny nights in WoW or whatever we’re playing at the time. I have a group Twitch made but we still have some work to do. I’m really hoping it works out because I think it would be really awesome. It’s always been a dream of mine to get paid doing the things I love doing and since I’m not getting paid to be a mom, what the hell? When it’s officially up and running, I’ll link it. But for now it is a work in progress :). Also, I’ve been looking around to getting a domain for this blog. As much as I love WordPress, I want something bigger. I would love to make this blog into possibly a part time job where I can bring a little money in. Sure it’s going to take some time but a little motivation and smacking myself upside the head to not be lazy is worth it. I did it after highschool for years and loved it. I was also big into computer graphics and I can’t even remember the last time I used Adobe Photoshop. Since I got a printer and scanner combo for christmas (thanks mom!) I might as well use it for something. I realize I’m turning 30 in a couple months and I really need to just start doing something with my life. I guess it’s never too late to start. I want my son to be proud of me and to know he can do anything he wants if he puts his mind to it. While it’s scary to think I’ve wasted my 20s, I want to make my 30s so much better. For myself and for little Jay. Because he deserves that. I deserve that too. So here’s to looking at 2017 with hope that I can achieve what I want to do with my life. 




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